Tired (-.-)zzz
Tired. Exhausted. Energy at an all time low. These words, I believe, sum up the majority of the general population’s experience of life at this point in history. A population can only live through so many “once-in-a-lifetime” events before it loses faith and confidence in the system as a whole. I know I have felt it for a while.
We went from witnessing essentially genocide in Gaza, to multiple human rights violations in the U.S. to an impotent president starting a war with no respect for the rule of law in our country. We see people being held responsible in other parts of the world for their actions in accordance to the Epstein Files. We see all the people in the U.S. who are being swept under the rug when it comes to their role in those horrific acts. We see our country crumbling from what we have come to believe it is into a pile of dust of what it actually is. We see the people in our lives that truly have a real “Trump derangement syndrome” that makes them delusional about who our president truly is.
He is a convicted felon, a sexual predator, a criminal. And yet, they can’t see past his claims that he is doing what’s best for this country. And his cohorts, the Kristi Noems, the Pete Hegseths, the Marco Rubios… they are even worse than he is. I’ve heard many places that MAGA is a cult. A cult is defined as “a relatively small group of people having beliefs or practices, especially relating to religion, that are regarded by others as strange or sinister or as imposing excessive control over members.” We are seeing a mega-cult formed and executing a plan to destroy what makes America great. Long ago we were described as a melting pot. People from all over the world would come here, seeking freedom and prosperity. Now, we see this cult declaring that America was never and will never be a melting pot, bringing together the best parts of the world into our country… only that it is currently a cesspool of crime and mentally unstable individuals who are not “the good ones”. Their claim of who the good ones are? The Charlie Kirks. The Nick Fuentes-es. The ones that make a living on twisting fact to make their backwards ideals seem more important and more relevant. And all of this as a president praises them and makes them feel untouchable.
If you don’t learn from history, it is doomed to repeat itself… a phrase paraphrased by Winston Churchill in 1948 and originally written by George Santayana in 1905. History tells us how we should remember events from the past. It tells us of the Halocaust, the internment of Japanese Americans, the struggles of war, the necessity to defend those who can not defend themselves. It tells us of overcoming a tyrannical government who does what it wants and pays no mind to those who its actions may affect. The blueprint is there, but do we act on it? No. Why? Because when we are so overcome with the negativity we see in the world, we find it hard to come together.
For some, coming out and saying, “I do not stand with our government” can truly mean their life is at risk. Your life being at risk isn’t always, “I could be killed by my government if I don’t agree” and can more often be, “I could lose my job and home if I say anything that they see as offensive to our government” it can also be simply, “my life would be made a living hell if people knew what I think about the current administration”. All of these things can lead to one form or another of losing your life.
Take me for interest, I live in Indiana. It is a deeply republican state. At my place of work, I can think of maybe 5 people that I know out of 15,000 employees that are not republicans. While I know there very well could be more of us, the likelihood that the next person could be democrats or not worship Trump, is very low. And if I start talking about what I believe, I truly believe it would lead to me being ostracized from my immediate work group and that could lead to me being let go because of something unrelated, but truly let go because my ideals don’t align with the organization. I am at the point where my savings account is in the low cents of balance, credit has been maxed out, and all of this while being able to rent a place that truly isn’t that unaffordable, though I do believe it could be more affordable. All of that is to say… if I lost my job and had 2 weeks where there was no money coming in… I believe I would not make rent. That would lead to my wife and I losing our house. With no savings, I would have no way of surviving financially. And in this world, surviving financially is essential to surviving physically.
That’s why, when I say I’m tired, yes, I want to go to sleep. But even more, I want to rest. I want to not stress. I want to wake up not wondering if the other shoe is going to drop. But instead, I have to focus on surviving. Never mind the thought of living… of existing without having to worry about if I will have enough money to pay for everything this month. But I am tired. So tired, that at times, I wished I would go into a coma and wake up in a few years, just to get the rest I need to power through the next 50 or so years until I retire, knowing the fact that with how the economy is, I’m going to have to work longer than I should just to survive. So yeah, maybe they could come up with another word for tired that pertains to the tired I feel.
Cause tired… exhausted… no energy… it truly doesn’t do this feeling I’m feeling justice. It’s like wanting a “no-bones” day and waking up realizing you’re a python and have entirely way too many bones to be able to have a no bones day…